>>school has taken over everything.
>>school, work, being broke and out of green.
>>i give up on my math class, my schedule is horrible and i'm a moron for making it, and apparently i've been missing a class that i thought was a one time orientation thing. i can't imagine how it could be a weekly class. i can't afford that waste of time. i wanted school to help me as an artist and that was my only goal. hopefully after i start my music major it will.

>>school and preparing for auditions have sucked the creative energy out of me.
>>but i'm truly seeing someone again, and trying to open up to all the good. but i feel like spending so much time with them has really somehow blocked the flow of inspiration, or the power to manifest it. they make me so happy that it makes me sad.

>>entering a poetry contest at um.

>>working on a piece, even tonight, that's been in my head...the phrase repeats - 'captain out'

>>up really late but out of brain power, i don't wanna clean anymore but i don't want to stop cleaning. stupid adderall.

>>lost crazy weight. 109 again. my manager even had 'a talk' with me about it, which only drives me more

>>lost my cell phone. its been soo nice other than losing all those numbers and organic meds.

>>sat in court from 1:30-8 to pay a fucking speeding ticket.

>>meteor shower tonight, orionoids. last time i watched one i was with a group of the shittiest people imaginable whom each of their ability to backstab and their talent of deceit is appalling, because i came to hurt one and they lied some more and that's where i ended up.
i can't get that night out of my head, actually.
what was i thinking?
i let them get away. i'm not violent by nature at all, i didn't know any better.
i wish i could get rid of that built up anger. i fucking hate it. i hate having violent urges, i don't know what to do with them.

>>that's about it.